My eyes fought the city’s sodium yellow glow, To survey the starry sky shrinking violet without show From my summer night opened window, Where I sought some consolation in my leaning out At 3a.m., unable to sleep in my burning doubt Of her feelings now, and my guilt at the verbal blow.
In the half-light gloom of the dreaming hour, When reveries of past love bloom and flower Soft as memories whispering in twilight elegies, Eloquent is their fragrance of bittersweet romance, Lingering on so long after its last dance of mysteries.
No longer able to lift her head to the citadel, She only has eyes for its pavement of stone. Bent double by some catastrophe, So cruel in its inexorable evolution Beyond any hope of reprieve or sins absolution, She is pushing her trolley in a sky-blue raincoat, With his once promised land now forever at her feet; Bereaved and alone, But for the persistence of a sweet memory That comes to set her free with its secret light, In the bewildered amnesia of the transient street.
For all beauty that passes without acknowledgement…
For all beauty that passes without acknowledgement, Unwitnessed by man in his absence or indifference, I say there exists a blessed reverence, An immortal testament unseen, A hymn of praise, Sung forever by exalting angels in heaven’s eternal dream.
Her hair blew in the innocent wind like flames
Her hair blew in the innocent wind like flames Licking the night. A fragmenting halo flying free, Burning all that knew and sinned, Within its holy tornado of blessed golden light.
Beauty should not toil
Beauty should not toil, But in parables be As the lilies of the field Spinning only their mysteries Of purity, Like their blessed creator, Unto the end of all our simple destinies.
Skittish in the greenish guttering corners of the terracotta waves Tessellating like a childish sea, The careering harbingers of the sun are returned from Africa Without ever divining the why. Beguiled into their pilgrimage by some caprice of its gravity, They are the obedient congregation flocking to dance for their deity, For the blinding star, Reigning omnipotent once more Over the modestly stuttering and reticent, British summer sky.
We paused after we passed on the steps, To exchange the briefest of backward glances; A stranger’s eyes meeting mine, The merest hint of a smile; A smile of regret at the passing of too much time, Too many lies, Too many romances. It was only a flattering moment in the ship-passing night; Too little and yet too much for words, Everything already said that needed to be said; Just the fleeting acknowledgement of an understanding Of life’s mysterious circumstances.
I fell into midnight whilst I slept; Deep as clichéd oceans, Deep as eternity’s continuum Fathomless with starlight. I descended and wept for sweet pity; For as I fell, I fell in love with all I had known Or now would ever know; And helpless in the moment of that revelation, My dying tree sang a requiem for its crooked branch, And for me; A requiem of infinite recrimination.
Passing Kepler, I dreamed of romance. The twelve strokes of time Echoing in remembrance of sensation; From the first chime of caring To the sublime eternal dance; That glimpse of the divine, Bluer than Lapis Lazuli, Bluer than sea or sky, Bluer than that staring eye I pretended not to see, In the cold crescendo of my arrogance.
Searching the city my tears were legion; Its walls waltzing into sodium For the grail that was a heart, Alone in that crumbling Avalon; Dissolving like the remnant of a nebula Into its final oblivion. The everlasting solitude Of my sleep-fall to the unknown region.
I saw a crumpled Earth-globe in a window; Continents and seas Creased and folded, Divided by degrees, Imprinted with the marks of men.
The air had escaped to the air, Like water from a melting; A deflated ball Covered in garish colours to appeal to the child; Formed from a substance that will never perish, Till that it models has finally ceased.
No more knowledge needed then; Nothing new to map to a scale.
A hillside resounding with angelic praise of love, Ascending high through its ancient trees; Their fugue of branches splitting the sky In to shocks of light above; Triumphant and ecstatic And dancing to heaven.
And the black hawthorn shall reap the sun, To sing forth blossoms in a spring that will come; Then the mocking crown cut for a kingdom Shall magick glorious in its cruel blood, Another music.
I saw Eternity the other night, Like a great ring of pure and endless light.’
Henry Vaughan b.1622
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At the vanishing point of Caerau road, Take my eyes for your trophies And let the men lead me now; Singing along this rising ground By the Llynfi’s twilight waterfalls, Toward its springing hill. Where a prodigal child Will at last redeem its vow, Made in a green summer dreaming Long ago; Before such squandering seasons of my blood Left me wasting and wondering and wandering wild.
Profligate pink and blue flowers Linger on for the last dying light; Lying in blossomed comfort, Strewn blind beside this path to dawn Set among the rushes and bramble thorn, Fading softly into the slow-falling night. Where a weary blinkered boy once led Work-struck sullen ponies from the head, To run and rest in bruised silver fields Beneath the towering trees unholy writ; Black and ancient as the burning rock, Cut from the Devil’s own pit.
Now I shall cross again those meadows into the boastful shadows, So proud of their grabbing fear; That hide the raging Minotaur who knows only his labyrinth, Yet still kills without a tear. Hollow words will splinter in the crackling litter of myths Snapping below my tread, On this trail of broken promises and deceptions bitter kiss; The rhymes of bard and poet once more blazing in my head, As a manuscript of devotion illuminates this ascension To a final fiery crest; Where I will stand at last breathless with my brothers Under the holy stars that watch and bless the world; Till the mothering morning of lark song and hawk flight Breaks high above the shining land, And embraces us close with light, To rest.